Lord, I will Follow Thee

Its been so long since I have blogged, that I knew it was time to update. Where to start?
I guess the best place to start is that in 2016 my son Tyler was called to serve a mission in the Tallahassee Florida mission. He was to enter the MTC on July 20th 2016. He was ecstatic, and we were as completely ready as we could be for him to go the week before the 20th. We decided to go to Lake Powell as a family 1 more time before he left. When we got home he would leave 2 days later. Tyler decided to really be careful not to do any extreme sports so that he was safe and healthy to leave. He really took an easy, so we thought. Sometimes freak things happen!
 We were taking an very easy hike through one of the canyons, when Tyler took a small leap to land onto another boulder. Well, apparently he landed just right, or wrong depending on how you look at it. Tyler was in excruciating pain! we managed to help get him out of the canyon and back into the boat. His foot was already so swollen and br…

A Change in my Heart

A Change in my Heart
Many of you know, and understand the the joys and the hardships of motherhood. I have found myself struggling to find joy in motherhood lately. I have been feeling overwhelmed in my abilities to be the kind of mother that my children need. My babies have some struggles, and there are days that I wonder, how will we get through the day. I want to be be everything that they need, but some days it just seems that I am not enough. 
This morning as I woke up, I realized that even though I feel like I am perhaps "failing" them, that we are in this together. If I truly do my best, that the Lord will make up for, and help me to know what I can do to help them. 
I love my babies, and so does my Heavenly Father. This motherhood thing is hard! I now understand that it is my responsibility to find joy in motherhood, that I can be happy being a mom. So, today I will change! I will look for and pray to see all the joys, tender mercies, love, fun, and opportunities that m…

Now I have a Facebook page for my music!


Had another anxiety attack last night after posting another song. I am trying to figure out why it is so hard to share my music. As I was thinking about it this morning, it dawned on me , that my music comes from somewhere deep inside of me, and letting you all see right into my very soul is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I always have thought that I wore my heart on my sleeve, but until now I have realized I have been holding back a huge part of me. Here's to learning, growing, and doing hard things.


"Normal People"

Last Sunday I bore my testimony in church. My heart was so full. Having heard the previous Brother's and Sister's who had born their testimonies, really reminded me of why I love Centerville, this neighborhood and the Centerville 7th ward.
 One particular sister stood and bore her testimony which such honesty. She had said that while her children were such a blessing in her life, that sometimes it was really hard to be a mom. She spoke of how mom's all around her often say how much they love being a mom, and  how their children are their world's. It's not very often when you hear other mother's talk about the hardship's, and trials you go through as a parent. She said that sometimes life just sucks, and it's really hard.
 Anyone who knows me personally, knows that I am an open book. I speak from my heart, and I don't like pretending that life is always perfect. The truth of the matter is, life is hard, and it does "suck" sometimes. We all…

It's Nothing Short of a Miracle!

It's been an interesting last 6 months since my brain surgery. The 6 weeks week after the surgery are a bit of a blur to me , but I do remember the kindness and love that I felt from so many people. Dinner's were brought in, friends took my younger children for play dates, my older kids stepped it up taking care of the house, and my loving husband took weeks off of work to tend to me. Steve was there anytime I needed anything. I wasn't in a whole lot of pain. Steve made sure to stay on top of my medication to ensure that I would be as comfortable as possible. He said I slept the entire 1st week after the surgery. He missed me, and when I started to get better, he said he was so glad to be able to have a conversation with me again. I was surprised when he told me that it had been a week already. He also said, "It was the hardest week of my life." He was a single dad of 5, and even though we were getting so much help, he still felt a bit overwhelmed.

 After 4 wee…

Looking Ahead

It's been a interesting couple of weeks, accompanied with lots of emotions. I have been living with Vertigo and daily migraines for the last 6 months with no relief from medications. I have had migraines and dizziness for many years, but not to the extent that I have had recently. I can tell you that I know my Heavenly Father is watching over me, and that My Savior knows what I have been going through. In a last resort to hopefully find a answer to my health issues, I went to see a neurologist. After many different tests including heart tests, and blood work ups, the Dr. determined that everything seemed to be normal. He then mentioned that he thought it was possible that I had a mild Chiari Malformation. He said that he was still not convinced that this is what had been causing my migraines. He then changed my medication for the 3rd time. He decided at the last minute to refer me to a neurosurgeon. Thank goodness he did! Normally it takes at least 6 weeks to get into this Neuros…