Wednesday, May 25, 2011
There is nothing more heart wrenching than to have your baby screaming "MAMA"over and over again because they are in pain, wanting you to fix it, and you can't. I found myself sitting on the bathroom floor holding him while he cried out my name over and over wanting me to take away the pain. It was too much for me to bear. I broke, and sat there sobbing with him. My poor little J had surgery yesterday to repair his urethra. The pain was so severe that when he had to urinate is caused him to to fall to all fours and just scream. I feel so completely helpless. All I can do is hold him until the pain subsides. We are giving him good pain pills which are finally starting to help this evening, but this is rough. Steve and I were up all night with him. There is nothing worse than watching one of your children suffer. I consider myself to be a pretty tough cookie, but when it comes to my babies in pain, I just break. Things are better so far tonight, so maybe the worst of it is behind us.