The "SSMORGAN5" Ship

I watch the disappointment in her eyes as she cries because she can't dance. I feel her hurt because she has to miss her 2 performances in December. The worst is not knowing what is wrong. She awakes one morning with her foot in enough pain that she can't walk on it. We thought maybe she has strained her tendon, or pulled a muscle, so we wait 3 weeks until it's getting worse. After an x-ray, and a CT scan we discover that she has Severe's disease, a coalition and extra bone in her ankle that is causing her foot to grind with pieces of her bone chipping off. This also has restricted the movement in her ankle. The specialist has never seen this before, so this will be his first surgery like this, but he is confident that he can repair it. In the meantime, her love of dance gets the best of her, and she decides she can't just sit and watch as her peers dance their hearts out. We are astonished watching her as she dances the lyrical routine on her knee's. She feels ...

 I feel so blessed to have the life that I have. Sure I have my own little trials in life, but I am so extremely lucky to have such wonderful friends and family in my life. Although my life seems to be going so well, some others in my life whom I care and love, are not having it so easy. I wonder at times why the people who have an amazing spirits,  kind souls, who are  compassionate, sweet, nonjudgmental and have a testimony with unwavering faith seem to have to endure the most excruciating trials in life. I don't have an answer to that question, but I have faith in my Heavenly Father, and that He truly does what is best for all of us. I know that we have trials to learn, and grow from.  I have been feeling very in tune with the spirit lately, even more that usual. My life seems to be going relatively smoothly right now, and I am at peace. I know that my Heavenly Father loves me, and that people are put in our paths for a reason. I have a special friend w...

After a long week of H being sick, and feeling a little cooped up in my house, JD decides to come down sick too. As I sit on our couch dreading another week of sickness, JD comes to sit on my lap. He usually is so busy that he only will sit with me a few minutes at a time, but this time he sits for an hour with me. Although he is sick, he is feeling very loving too. Out of nowhere he turns to me and gives me a kiss. I melt and feel an overwhelming emotion come over me.. Even though I am afraid of catching this nasty virus, I take it. I love it when he does this. Throughout the hour I get kiss after kiss, and each time I find myself getting teary eyed. Heavenly Father had planned this out long before I had ever known that H and JD were my own. Each kiss reminds me that I have indeed been so blessed to have these 2 come into my life, and that they are mine through and through. They are my blood, and I get to have them for eternity. I am a mom of 5, and I love them so very much. How bless...

Take a deep breath, get ready, set, and juggle. This seems to be the theme of my life. I say this like I am overwhelmed, but I am just the opposite. I love to be busy, and I love to serve. My newest adventure is directing "Beauty and the Beast" at our elementary school. This is my second year doing this, and I am so excited! I had 115 kiddo's come and audition. Everyone of them get a part of course, but it is so fun to see their cute faces, and hear their sweet voices. So much talent in this school! I love these kids.  Dance season has begun and is in full swing. Randilynn will be busy with dance 4 nights a week, and with playing the part of Babbette in the play. I am taking a dance class too, along with trying to find time for yoga, take care of my busy family, Ty's piano lessons, volunteering for the Foster Care Foundation, Jude's speech, and Early Intervention appts.   I am excited to start Peer Parenting for DCFS. I sure didn't last long not being involv...

Saturday June 18th definitely could have been a better day, but hey were alive and that's what counts. After a fun overnight camp out down at the cabin were preparing to go to bed and wake up early Sunday morning to go home. H was coming down our steep staircase from the loft and fell off the side 8 ft down straight onto her head. i saw  the whole thing happen, and as I did I was running as fast as I could in hopes of breaking her fall. I failed. My mommy reflexes failed me, and I missed her by an inch. As soon as I realized I missed, I had to dive over her to avoid landing on her and causing more damage. I flew into the wall of cabinets, then quickly began to assess the situation. H was screaming which was actually a good thing, because it meant she was conscious. I checked her eyes, and looked over her body and knew I was safe to move her. her eye began to swell very quickly, and I knew we needed to get her to a hospital. the ride to the ER was so very long. H was falli...

 Oh my! I have two VERY busy little ones. Yesterday I had the unfortunate, unpleasure of seeing my garden all plucked and dug up from our sweet little Hope. After the replanting that I've done, we will see what survives. I also scrubbed marker off the kitchen floor, and a pan full of oil out of the oven spilled out into the oven and all over the kitchen floor. Thankfully the oven and oil were cool. " Thank goodness our oven is self cleaning!" I thought, but the smell and smoke was so overpowering that I was coughing, and gagging. My sweet boy also took his 4th box of cereal out of the cupboard and dumped it all out on the floor as he watched me running towards him trying to catch him before he did it. My boy loves to try and do what he isn't allowed to do before I can get to him. Cute little stinker! Mr. J was definitely exploring new things, and realizing that he is a bit taller these days. Steve and I spent all of last night doing even more toddler p...

 There is definitely a difference in how you treat the last baby of your family. I hardly have the self control I need  not dig though the trash and disinfect his bottles so he can have one.  I'm sitting here listening to J cry himself to sleep. I keep trying to rationalize the reasons why I haven't already taken them away, but the truth is, I have enjoyed how easy it has been to sooth him with them, and put him down so easily to bed; not to mention he refuses to drink milk out of a sippy cup. We have tried all different kinds. He will only drink water and juice out of them. The doc says just to give him other forms of calcium now since he actually is on the curve now! Yep, J made into the 5th percentile for his weight and height! I have no more excuses. I know it's been time to take him off the bottle for a few months now, but he is almost all recovered from the surgery, so I just need the self control not to give in. :) I sure love my baby boy.